I want to feel every feeling in this place.

No matter what that feeling is.

I love to fake emotion to feel everything that surrounds me.



Fake is nothing but also an emotion which helps covering many other emotions.

I love it when the people around me are showing an emotion;

An emotion which I want them to express.



How does it even matter if someone fakes their emotion?

But is it necessary to fake everything that surrounds me?

Instead, is it necessary to showcase fake emotions?



Umm, is it even necessary to show what I feel at that moment?

What if the other person gets offended by my realistic nature?

What if the person whom I consider close to me would now be separated due to the end of this game of faking everything?



But would I be able to fake for long?

I want to know that how long can it last?

What if someday that close being accidently gets to know that I was faking everything?



Let me then try not to fake anymore.

To feel every feeling in a realistic way, with all my senses to be opened.

Let the open pores of my body absorb the reality of the world.



It is because, just the way I am faking about much things in the life,

That close being who is standing next to me can either be fake or real.

For me being real is a better option, because I feel free when I am real.

Because even if the close people near me will be fake, then I will be a lot happier than them.

I will be able to express my real emotions for their fake ones.

I hopefully might be able to change their fakeness.



When I was free from all the fake world,

It felt really calm, it felt like seeing my pet dog sleeping on my chest,

And most importantly seeing him sleeping and smiling with my real eyes and not through the glasses.



I don’t need any feeling that will help me cover my reality.

I love being real and to be out of the closet, to help people see the real me.

Because, I always want to start or end a relationship with all realness, so being real is really a better option.