But, to my crush, you're that beautiful thought which makes me smile always. Forever.s Irrfan Khan starts every letter with "Dear Ila," I'm starting with, "Dear crush." Little too much? You should have seen me in front of my crush. Every time I think of my crush, it's total filmy. You know, like in 3 idiots? Yellow scooter, red helmet, dupatta flies? Exact same feeling. The first time I saw you, oh my god, legit, it was a wow feeling. You were sitting. I was behind you, you turned but spoke to the person next to me. This is what is called "What a miss." The next time, You were in front of me, scrolling through your phone, also chewing gum. Too much attitude? Hell yeah, what else can I think? I literally stared at you, the whole time, you still didn't turn. My bad luck? Oh yes. I saw you near my department, I smiled, and you barely smiled. I used to see you near food courts but never got a chance to say hi or smile at you. Though we had known each other through mutual links, it was never really anything different from being strangers. Whenever I smiled, you never looked at me at all. But the better point is, neither my friends around me did. If they'd seen, it would have been embarrassing But as it goes, once you have a crush, you need friends to discuss it with. I never discussed it, though. But, my friends didn't spare a chance to tease me with you. And honestly, the best feeling ever. Imagine as filmy as you can, and it's still nothing like what I had felt then. Watching you daily walk the other side of me, I always felt like SRK, widening my hands and wait for you. You had barely smiled twice or thrice, but that's what it takes for me to think of you on a loop. I have come literally early to college sometime, just to see you at the parking lot and waited there. I remember a day when we had actually twinned; I'm not girlish, but, "Oh my god. WE TWINNED". Oops, was it much of exaggeration? I hardly showed my emotion. Can we go on a breakfast date? Really far? That's my all-time favorite dream. Not only to go with you but also to eat. Sorry, I'm a foodie. ( Kidding ) The most beautiful thing about having a crush is not letting them know that you have a crush on them. And I'm really poor at it. I tried to stop myself though, but I texted. I tell you, an emoji reply can destroy a man's heart girl, know that. I'm trying not to laugh now, but on a brighter side, I got a response. I tend to feel that all romantic songs are written for you, and obviously by me. Like sitting on a scooter, you riding, me singing the song "perfect," perfectly. What a dream! Or a slow dance with some music on. Spoiler alert, I'm the worst dancer you'd ever meet. I really thought of impressing you in some of the other ways, but I don't even know how to pull the middle stand to my scooter. So yeah, still thinking of ways to impress. I know too many people fall for you. And honestly, I don't like it too. Too many competitors are equal to too much competition. It's still a dream to sit next to you, drink a cup of coffee with some extra sugar. Or if you're a tea person then tea, no issues. I guess my cheeks will hurt if I stand in front of you. Blushing is not my type, but I really don't think I'd do anything other than that. I wish one day we sit and laugh telling, "oh, you had a crush on me too? That's funny because I think I had it too." I know that's never going to happen. I'd love to be your Raj, Simran. And at some situation, at least I'd love to say, "Senorita, bade bade deshon mein Aisi choti choti baathe hoti rehti hai." Sometimes it's best leaving it at crush level because I feel it's most beautiful. But, to my crush, you're that beautiful thought which makes me smile always. Foreve